Weekend Recap

When I got home after my amazing run my mom and grandma were already here just waiting for me. I talked with them for a bit and then hoped in the shower and finally got dressed for the day, at 3pm. I decided to make some more homemade bread for them to have with dinner so I got that going while chatting with them. We talked for a bit and then they had to get going to church and I got going on making dinner for them. It was nice to be in control of the cooking so I know what I am eating, but it is so hard with my grandma around. As I mentioned before she always overcooks and we have a bunch of leftovers. I was just planning on making some pasta, roasting some squash and having bread. My grandma also brought corn that she wanted me to make and really wanted me to make stuffed squash (roasted acorn squash filled with stuffing. yum). Who can say no to their grandma?!? So, I obviously ended up cooking way to much food for dinner. I had a bite of everything and counted the calories. It was good and worth it.

This morning my mom and I took little lady back down for the last day of ArtPrize. (The main reason for this visit was that my mom wanted to see ArtPrize.) It was nice because we got down there fairly early and it wasn't to crowded. We walked around for over 2 hours so I am counting that as one of my cross-training days for this week.

We came home and grandma had of course cooked a huge feast for us. Thankfully, it was just chicken stir fry, but she made enough for everyone to have at least 3 servings. It was good, but it looks like we will be eating leftovers all week.

My grandma also has a sweet tooth so she brought some donuts and coffee cake. She must have crazy self control because she is always around this type of stuff and is not huge at all. Right now we have 3 huge peanut buttery donuts and 3/4 of a coffee cake sitting in the kitchen. I told myself I wasn't going to touch any of it, but I had 1/4 of a donut and a piece of  coffee cake. I counted the calories though and am fine. I just hope I can restrain myself. I hope the hubby doesn't mind taking it to work tomorrow. :)

I wanted to post about this yesterday, but didn't want to ruin my runners high from the amazing run. I overindulged again on Friday night. I think I was tired and didn't realize it in time to help myself. I did start out strong though. I had eaten dinner on Friday night and just didn't feel full. I wanted to snack and didn't let myself for awhile. I actually had some tea earlier than usual and that held me over for awhile. After another hour went by, I just still felt hungry. I decided that maybe I was just really hungry. I warmup up some leftovers from taco night and ate one taco. I felt a little better and was ok with that. Then all of a sudden I remembered the delicious chips from taco night. I had 2 servings and put them away. I was mad that I ate them, but happy I stopped with 2. However, the eating didn't stop there. A half hour later I still felt hungry and snacked for awhile. I went to bed shortly after that, pissed off at myself for not just skipping the snacks and going to sleep early. Oh well, this is real life.

On the positive side, I woke up Saturday and went right back on track. I didn't weigh myself because I knew there would obviously be a gain and I just didn't need to see it. (I did weigh in today and there is still a gain.) I used to let binges bring me down for days/weeks/months at a time. It is a huge success for me to let it only ruin a night. I think I am ready for the next step though. I would like to stay binge free for 30 days. They say 21 days to create a new habit so I say 30 days to make it stick. In 30 days it will be November 6th. I will be a new person by then, right? I would also be happy with just a whole week binge free. I seem to have one bad day every week. Not this week though.

In pain and out of control

After Wednesday's super positive post I sort of lost it. Yesterday was a rough day for me. I woke up with a sore back. I didn't think to much of it, I figured I just slept weird. We got ready for the day and it still hurt so I took a pain pill and little lady and I met a friend downtown to look at ArtPrize again. We walked around for a bit, had lunch and came home. That was when it all went down hill. I sat down at the computer with a heating pad and realized how bad my back was hurting. I did some of my chores for the day and couldn't even finish some of them. I had planned on running two miles yesterday, but  I realized that I should probably take it easy. Even sitting was starting to hurt my back. I decided to lay down on the couch with my heating pad. I don't know what part of brain couldn't handle laying down on the couch without snacking, but it won. I overindulged for a bit until thankfully little lady woke up earlier than usual from her nap. I don't like to mindlessly eat in front of her so I had to put away all the food. It took all of my strength to carry her downstairs though. I ended up laying on the couch with the heating pad all night. The hubby took care of little lady (and the dishes!) while I laid there. It was nice, but I am sure didn't help my weight.

I am not sure what happened to my back. It is still sore today, but a little better than yesterday. I am guessing my workouts maybe did something to my back. When I was running my 4 miles on Saturday I remember really trying to pay attention to my body. I pretty much always want to stop running while I am running so I have to ask myself why I want to stop. As I was nearing the end of my 4 miles I remember thinking that my legs felt fine running and so did my breathing, but towards the very end my back was getting sore. It didn't hurt very much while running, but it was the only place hurting at all while running. I also took a pain pill before heading out on Saturday night because I just felt sore after my running. Then, on Wednesday I took a walk with a new friend. We sort of got distracted talking and probably walked for over an hour before we realized we should turn and start heading back. I am guessing we walked over 6 miles. I am thinking the increase in mileage is affecting my back. I went out this morning with little lady, but am skipping the 2 mile run this week. I am supposed to do 4 miles tomorrow. If my back doesn't feel good, I am not doing it. I will hold off and hopefully by Monday feel better and get 4 miles in then. 

I was supposed to weigh in today. I was having a really weird dream this morning, the kind where you are hearing something in real life but you just make it part of the dream. Little lady had woken up but I just decided to incorporate baby talking into my dream. When I realized that she was up I sort of jumped up frantically and ran to her. I didn't think to weigh myself when we came back down and once I drank some water I refused to step on the scale. :) Yesterday morning I saw 171.9 but I am sure yesterday's eating put some weight back on so I probably wouldn't have posted today's weight anyways.


I am heading to my mom's tomorrow morning. I will weigh myself before I leave, but I may not post again until Monday. Here are the few pictures I took from ArtPrize.

Little lady liked the penguins in the fountain in front of the Ford museum.

I liked these sculptures on the walking bridge.

For those of you not near Grand Rapids, Art Prize is pretty sweet. The city hosts this crazy art competition and there is tons of art throughout the city. In buildings, parking lots, even the river. It is fun to check it out, but this year it seems extra crowded. I am only planning on heading back there once more this year. My mom really wants to see it so she will be here next weekend to check it out.